You Guys Should Have Met Her
We lost her sometime between the first and the fourth, Kaira had her umbilical cord wrapped around her neck, And the doctor's didn't notice it in time, I'm doing my best to re-frame it from how I used to talk about it, It's a hole in my chest, But I am whole, I'm just without a piece of myself, One I'm built to need, People marvel at my ability to adapt, Or maintain my cool in discomfort, Or to completely lose my shit, All three are because I came into this world screaming, Mourning, someone no one else will ever know, I shared the womb with her, Outside of our mother, I was all she ever had, The fucked up thing about that is, She's all I want when I'm alone, Because with her here, Alone, Would never sting the way it does without her, It would never be so final, It would never be so decisive, Alone, I surround myself with the most excellent people I can find,