That toilet is gone but on my block there's something else you might be interested in.

How do I explain it properly?

I keep trying to figure that out,

Even after years,
After fights over nothing and everything,
After a relationship cut short,
For all the right reasons in that time,
After one of the rockiest friendships I've ever had,

You are still electric,
I can't breathe properly with you,
Just like I can't breathe right around Styrofoam,
Constantly trying to catch it,
My breath,

I don't want to be that guy,
The friend who's hung up on you,
So I do my best not to be,
I still try to be a good friend,
As hard as I can,
But then you hug me,
Or touch me on accident,
Or I give you a backrub,
Or you fall asleep on me at a bus stop,
It's a constant up and down,
My heart runs marathons,
Up and down hill,
I want it to be normal for the sake of simplicity,

I want to not have to wonder why that's there,
It's funny because I keep coming back to it,
And you have varying levels of interest,
I feel like I've worn that interest out,
That I'm somehow no longer fun,
Or interesting,

I want you to know,
There's a lot of potential energy here,
I want to solve our equation,
To find out if it equals radioactive decay,
Or something better,

You told me you needed to stay busy,
Because you were lonely,
I wanted to be next to you,
To give you the best hug I can give,
Because I know that one,
Lonely,

Your smile makes me feel stupid,
You're not afraid of me,
You're better than me,
At a lot of things,
Like making me feel better,

You don't know how amazing you are,
I wish I could show you,
Because you make it look simple,

I know you shake and sputter,
Just like I do,
And I want you to know,
You don't have to do that alone,

So I sit here on the side of the road,
With a sign that says,
"Free Human,"
Like discarded furniture,
Or plumbing,

We can try to make sense of it together,
If you want to.

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